When I was 10, I had a huge crush on this girl. She
was about 10 I think. I remember getting butterflies in my tummy each time I
saw her. I used to get excited and hyper (I was a hyper active child back
then). So I asked myself, "Is this love? So this is how love feels?" I
remember watching her at the temple one day, dancing gracefully to an Indian
contemporary. I stopped going to the temple after that, though. But then
she left, just like that.
Then when I was 16,
again, I think I fell in love. She was 14. I asked myself, "Is this love?
So this is how love feels?" She never reciprocated my feelings and I grew
devastated. Being immature back then, I started to develop a slight tinge of
hatred towards her. Being a teenager, I started believing that love was pure
bullshit. Then, as time passed, I met others along the way. I forgot the past.
Many did reciprocate it, and then at a certain point they grew tired. I don't
blame them. I'm different they would say. Some were afraid to love. Some lost
the ability to love. Some faked it. Again, the same question used to arise time
and time again.
What is love? What EXACTLY is love? I see quotes about it on
Facebook, I read poems about it online. I see them making movies about love,
songs about love, books about love. People preaching love. People making love.
I see them saying love is blind. I hear them saying love makes people do stupid
things. But, what is love? You know, I don't have the right answer for it. But
I can tell you something though, love is beautiful. The excitement you get when
you meet your loved one. The tickling feeling of butterflies in your stomach
The amazing magic feeling you get when you're holding her hands. The bliss of
smelling her hair. The joy in kissing her on the forehead. The pain of losing
her. The longing you feel at times when you're alone. The satisfaction when you
see her after a long period of time. It's worth it.
Love, I think is a journey
everyone should embark on. If you've never fell in love, then you've never
lived. No one knows what love is, as I think love is unique and personal to
each one. Some say that love is like a game of dice. You may lose your heart
once or twice, but hey, who wins all the time?
I remember saying this once and I'll say it
again; love is like skydiving. You might fall to your death, but hey enjoy the
scenery whilst you're falling. I'm already out of the plane, are you?
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